Unidentified Alien

               "When he crossed my mind and heart, he never really left. Nag-hide lang pala siya."

          Honestly, di ko alam kung ano na ako sa kanya ngayon. Am I just an ex? An ex/friend? An ex/ we still have something? HAHAHA. Gulong gulo na din ako. I don;t know my position. What is my hold. kasi I'm totally clueless. Pero kung ako ung tatanungin kung ano siya sa akin, HE'S MY PRINCE, MY WORLD, He's the one who made my heart skip a beat. Who gave me butterflies in my tummy. I'm not obsessed, I'm just... loyal. I thought that in that 8 months of no communication I got over him na. But hindi pal pala. Kasi when he crossed my mind and heart he never really left, nag-hide lang pala siya.

        When we broke-up my friends told me, "don't cry he doesn't deserve you, forget him". Pero I don't listen. Kasi I don't want to lie sa sarili and force myself. So in my head "go on, tell me that, I know you're being a friend to me, I appreciate it". Until now, ganto pa din ako ka-STUBBORN.

          I never thought that I'll love like this. (corny talaga wag kayong umangal). Kasi ang bitter ko sa love actually. As in! HAHAHA. He melt the ice in my chest. And thankful ako dun. Kaya ayan, ang hirap niya i-let go. Stupidity daw tawag sa ganto, pero I don;t care. Kasi in my mind "ayos lang yan, lahat naman ng tao nagpapakatanga eh. Ang mahalaga, masaya siya kahit painful sa kin." Bakit? Ganun naman talaga di ba? And that's the important lesson na natutunan ko. Learn how to give.

          Now all I want is my consistency. Yung assurance. Yung place ko. Kung ano ba talaga ako sa kanya. Na pag tinatanong ako nila, hindi "Ewan ko. Friends. Hahaha" ang isasagot ko. Kasi nahihya akong itanong yun sa kanya. kasi nga SINO NGA BA AKO SA KANYA NGAYON? Pero kasi kelangan ko din yun malaman. Haayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy. "When you love a person you'll never stop loving them. You just stop showing it to them."