"I woke-up having the thoughts of you, but I have to tell myself that I have to stop dreaming"
Giving up doesn't mean you fell out of love. It just means that you are strong enough and had the courage to let go of the things that you wanted the most. It's not about being weak, it's being able to learn the words "setting free".
Lagi kong sinasabi sa seatmate ko and close friend ko na "I'm moving on na nga". Pero di ko pa din siya ginagawa. Haha. Simple lang naman ung rason ko eh, ayoko pa. Ayoko pa kasi, hindi dahil yun sa itsura niya na habulin ( haha) hindi dahil yun sa naging kame at kulang pa yung araw na pagiging kame dahil yun sa 15 buwan ko na pagmamahal sa kanya. For 15 months I've been LOVING him. At yun yung pinaka mahirap I let go. Madaling tanggapin na "Break na Kayo". Ang mahirap lang talaga tanggapin ay "Break na kayo, susuko ka na?" I think I've done everything I could to put things back on the way it was. Kaya maybe, somehow, part of me is telling me na you can set him free na.
Last night tinanong niya ko kung mahal ko pa daw ba siya. Syempre sinabi ko, "Tinatanong pa ba yun?". Pero di siya nakuntento sa sagot kung yun kaya sinabi kong "Oo.". Kasi yun naman yung totoo. Di naman kasi nawawala yun eh. Kanina may falling star, nakalimutan ko mag-wish. Pero kung saka-sakaling makapag-wish ako ang i-wiWish ko ay sana I can find the answers that I needed with this verging feelings. Yun lang.
"I know, we'll meet at the equinox, just step forward. I'll wait for you there"
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